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Nov. 9th, 2023 11:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vivienI aten't dead.
It was a little touch and go there in August, but thanks to intensive group therapy and a medication change, I'm actually doing better than I have in... years. Many years. Possibly ever. I've always had a gloomy corner of doom in brain, but sunlight is shining into it now. It is bizarre. Is this how normal people feel? Like doom and dread is not imminent? Like you can enjoy life instead of fear it? WACKY.
Sounds fake, but I am experiencing it, so...
I have a new job, too, which I started in June, and I like it. Like, actually enjoy it. It is, omg, it's fun. Not all the time - it's still work - but I like what I'm doing.
As 2023 bleakened earlier in the year, I lost the thread of my witchy exploration. I'm going to pick up following the wheel of the year again with Yule. I'm determined to get past Imbolc this time. 2023 was super rough, y'all. I focus on the changes of nature and the rhythm of life in my emerging practice, and not magic, but with the gloomy corner of doom lighter in my brain banished, maybe there's more magic possible than I originally thought.
It was a little touch and go there in August, but thanks to intensive group therapy and a medication change, I'm actually doing better than I have in... years. Many years. Possibly ever. I've always had a gloomy corner of doom in brain, but sunlight is shining into it now. It is bizarre. Is this how normal people feel? Like doom and dread is not imminent? Like you can enjoy life instead of fear it? WACKY.
Sounds fake, but I am experiencing it, so...
I have a new job, too, which I started in June, and I like it. Like, actually enjoy it. It is, omg, it's fun. Not all the time - it's still work - but I like what I'm doing.
As 2023 bleakened earlier in the year, I lost the thread of my witchy exploration. I'm going to pick up following the wheel of the year again with Yule. I'm determined to get past Imbolc this time. 2023 was super rough, y'all. I focus on the changes of nature and the rhythm of life in my emerging practice, and not magic, but with the gloomy corner of doom lighter in my brain banished, maybe there's more magic possible than I originally thought.