First Sunday of December
Dec. 3rd, 2023 01:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vivienI have a very exciting piece of news to share. When you're not chock full of depression and anxiety, the early darkness of this time of year is annoying but not soul destroying. It is AMAZING. Friends, I've been deeply depressed for four years, and to not be so is such a revelation. I'm not, like, cured or anything, but my anxiety is much, much lower, and I have to actively search for that gloomy place that dominated my brain before now.
I put up Christmas today - finished decorating the tree and the halls (and then getting the storage totes back into the closet). They will be going to the storage unit in January, thus giving more room into my place for packed moving boxes and such.
I also smudged the house for the first time since spring, when I started my even deeper spiral. It felt good.
Through all of this, I'm pulling aside the stuff that will be sold in the giant downsizing auction in March. There is a lot. Most of the big pieces of furniture, lots and lots of decorations and kitchen stuff I just don't want. It's very therapeutic to know this amount of stuff will be out of my life and not moving with me. Sometimes a do-over is just the right thing to do.
I put up Christmas today - finished decorating the tree and the halls (and then getting the storage totes back into the closet). They will be going to the storage unit in January, thus giving more room into my place for packed moving boxes and such.
I also smudged the house for the first time since spring, when I started my even deeper spiral. It felt good.
Through all of this, I'm pulling aside the stuff that will be sold in the giant downsizing auction in March. There is a lot. Most of the big pieces of furniture, lots and lots of decorations and kitchen stuff I just don't want. It's very therapeutic to know this amount of stuff will be out of my life and not moving with me. Sometimes a do-over is just the right thing to do.